My baby's got the beat

Let me just begin by telling you that this crazy "normal" infertile decided to spend the $19 per month to get the fetal doppler from baby beat. I haven't been too nutso with it since I got it, but it completely comforts me to hear the lovely sound every once in a while. I stopped puking, so then I started freaking out that I lost it, etc. Duh, I know.

My next big appointment is April 14 for the anatomy scan ultrasound. I will be 19 weeks by then (yikes!!!). We do not want to know the sex, so hopefully there will be no revealing pictures or idiot techs that accidentally tell us.

I told a few more people this weekend at a bridal party/bachelorette-ish gathering Friday night. I didn't say anything until the end, and I am surprised that no one asked since I was on the water train all night long. These gals were happy for us and for me, and you know what, I am beginning to allow myself to be happier about this. I am still silently frightened this will all go away, and I hope that feeling fades away soon.

2nd Trimester

I think I am officially in the 2nd trimester now. Wednesday will be 14 weeks, and at my first OB appointment last Thursday, she said, "You're just a normal pregnant woman now."

Inspite of all this IF
Inspite of all this IVF
Inspite of all these surprises

I got to hear the baby's heartbeat, but I was expecting an US. The doctor (who I love and has been my OB for 3 years) runs a solo practice, and she does not have a fancy schmancy office. In fact, she has 4 chairs in the waiting room. Yup. No big practicing clinic here, and that has both good and bad. The good is that I have never waited for an appointment. If I am scheduled at 3:00, I get in a 3:00. She is also 100 percent going to be the one delivering the bebe, which is comforting to know that she is my one and only.

The downsides of this is that she does not have all the crazy new technology that other docs have. For my 18 week US, I will go see a MFM who will do the body scan, not her. Also, she does not allow water births, which was something I really wanted to do. She is all for the au natural, but there are limits. When I got home from the appointment, I google searched local docs who are water birth friendly, and they all have the crazy large many doctor practicing office, and the message boards postings complained about how long they always have to wait to be seen. My idea of a water birth can take a back seat for this baby. I hate waiting rooms!!!

So basically, I go see her again in 4 weeks. 4 weeks! She told me that I have to wean myself from ultrasounds now that I am "normal." I did get to hear the hearbeat on the doppler, and now I think I might go out and buy a doppler for home. I dunno.

So, yeah. That's all. I guess this is what it must be like to be a normal fertile, where babymaking and all that jazz is just a regular thing. I am going to have to wean myself from myself and just learn to chill.

We started telling people, and people are excited. It has mostly been close friends and family. I still can't quite figure out how to tell others. This whole experience with IF and IVF has been such a private struggle, it seems fitting that the pregnancy be the same, too. I am afraid to tell people. Is that weird? I was a closer IFer; does that mean I will be a closet pregger?

Still throwing up in the morning, although it isn't the deep hurl anymore. It's more of a surface puke, like top of the stomach. For the most part, all my vomiting sessions have been pretty awful. I puke this enormous amount of blah and I am even peeing my pants when I do. I know, TMI, but nobody ever said I'd pee myself when I puke from morning sickness. Someone, please tell me that has happened to you? I confided in a friend and she muttered something about my kegels. Ahem, my kegels are strong, so that's not it. Well, at least that seems to have stopped.

Alrighty then. This post is sufficiently long enough.

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