Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Third Trimester Changes

34 weeks tomorrow:

1. Heartburn stopped. Yup. It's been, oh, almost 2 weeks and my digestive tract decided to start behaving again.

2. Urge to pee doesn't even mean that there is pee to expel. Grhhh...my every two hour pee alarms are sometimes drip drip drip.

3. Major basketcase emotionally. First, I started reading A Dog's Purpose, and I can't stop crying....like every 4 pages I'm bawling.

4. Because of major emotional issues, even movies are making me nuts. We watched Blue Valentine last night, and I cried for, oh, 20 minutes when the dog was found dead on the highway. In the first 5 minutes of the movie. What's wrong with me???

5. Said mood changes have now left me acting like a total beyotch, specifically the fact that DH cannot pick up after himself, so I started leaving all his shit (dishes, coffee cups) where ever he left them last. It's been 5 days, and he is sure to run out of a coffee cup soon. Gee, you think he'll notice it then? Yes, total passive aggressive, but WTF slob?

6. Baby moves are slower and (ouch) harder now.

7. The television makes me nuts now. I can't channel surf and I get annoyed at the sound of the TV now. Hello! I am missing out on my shows!!

8. Getting in and out of the car is hard now. My legs don't move from the ground to the floor of the car without me concentrating on that manuever. Dork.

9. I want a glass of wine! I haven't been even remotely interested in drinking since pre-IVF, but the last week, wine in on my mind.

10. Saw myself in a full-length mirror for the first time in about 16 weeks. Yikes! My belly is huge. I am carrying long and out in front. Yikes!

Thursday, July 21, 2011

trip to L&D

I feel like the post I am about to write is one that many many ladies seem to experience. So, all day yesterday, bebe was acting crazy. The little squirt was flip flopping and kicking and punching, and all day (all day), I was having pretty regular BH. I got home around 4:00 from work and did what a good preggar is supposed to do: lie down and drink water. Contractions continued, and when I was paying attention, they were around 5-7 minutes apart.

7:00 rolls around and it's still happening. Dh is a work, so I am left to google (Oh google!) about BH and preterm labor. I started actually tracking the BH with the ipod app and sure enough, they were every 5-7 minutes and lasted about 30-45 seconds.

At 9:00ish, I said to myself, "If I have another, I'm calling the doc."

Had another.

Waited, thinking this was the last one.

Had another. Fuck. It's 9:06.

I'll call the doc if I have one more.

This cycle continued until 9:30 when I finally called the doc. She suggested L&D trip, So I let the dog out and headed over. I live 5 minutes from the hospital. I called DH and left him a message. By 10:00 I was hooked up to the monitors and sure enough, they were coming every 5-6 minutes. The nurse checked my cervix and it was tight and closed, so the doc said to put me on IV fluids and shoot me up with Brethine. Sometime around 11:00pm I had hubs in the room, the IV dripping, and the shot making me feel like I just drank 50 cups of coffee. I only needed one shot because it worked wonders. My uterus stopped contracting and all was good. I was discharged shortly before midnight and given an Ambien. Yikes! Within 10 minutes, I was loopy and went to bed.

Had a regularly scheduled appoinment with the Ob today, and she basically said that I'm all good and that the Brethine was like a bitch slap to the uterus to stop it from its irritability. Um, "bitch slap" is my words, not the docs. How funny would it be to hear the doc say that.

So, moral of the story: I have none. I am glad I called the doctor even though there was nothing really wrong other than a spazzy uterus. Oh, and Ambien is nutty.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

What a difference a year makes

Last night, I got the text that my friend had her baby. This is the same friend who got married last August. She got knocked up pretty quickly, and we were all thrilled for her. I felt even more thrilled for her because she is my age. Jealous, yes, but thrilled nonetheless.

A year ago, I was finishing up my last unsuccessful IUI and feeling quite alone and afraid. Today, I am enjoying the backaches as I grade my papers. I am feeling the kicks and movements of this creature inside of me. I am feeling, dare I say it, like I am pregnant and am going to have a baby. With extreme confidence, actually. I'm not sure where the fear went, but I am calm and happy. Today I am 32w3d.

I went to a cloth diapering class offered by the local natural parenting boutique this morning. I thought I was informed before this, but now I feel like AHHH!! There are so many options to choose from: two-parts, pocket, all in ones, hybrids, one size, fitted. Ahhh! I had no idea, really. It is a lot to digest, but I know for sure that I intend to cloth diaper and feel as though I have resources and a place to go with questions.

In the afternoon, I dropped by prental yoga and enjoyed each moment. When I used to do work-study, I cleaned right after the saturday afternoon class. It was hard to see all those pregnant women leaving class. Sometimes it would really hurt and I'd sweep, mop, and dust my way through the bitterness and anxiety of my infertility. I think I realized for the first time that today, I am one of those pregnant ladies.

Oh, and for those of you who are struggling with back issues, the belly bra works wonders for me. Ok, it's not called the belly bra, but it basically lifts and holds your belly up, relieving the pressure. It's ugly, but it is helping.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Updates, 31 weeks

Yeah, 31 weeks. That's an update alright.

*I kicked the glucose tolerance test's ass: my score was 93! Wooh! I celebrated with dark chocolate and vanilla bean ice cream.

*We have finally finished the room renovation that is now our master bedroom! It took 2 and 1/2 months because it was a total gut rehab, but we are moved in, and it is lovely,

*Nursery should be finished this weekend sans one or two pieces of furniture and wall hangings. I haven't gotten that far in terms of any decorating ideas. That seemed so silly to me because I mostly had been just hoping to stay pregnant. Planning the decor seemed so unrealistic, but it's coming and I gotta start planning.

*Summer school is over in about 2 1/2 weeks, then I get three weeks off! Yipee, although I can't imagine what I can do for 3 weeks in the hot hot August weather.

*Total weight gain is 20 pounds as of Thursday's appointment.

*Met with the pediatrician practice we are choosing. Their office is pretty neat with a well waiting area and a sick waiting area. Nice. Also, they do not use nurses; there are four doctors and just regular people manning the phones, etc. They said that they believe that the only person the parent wants to speak with is the doctor, and they are 100 percent committed to that philosophy. Sweet.

*Got the lowdown on the vaccine issue. This office does its own delay system and does not believe in doing all vaccines such as hep A or RSV. I am cool with their schedule, so my concerns have been met. I still think it is kinda weird to give hep B vaccine to a child since it is only transmitted via blood, but I can compromise.

*Feeling woefully unprepared--for everything. This really is going to happen, and I am scared to death.