Last night, I got the text that my friend had her baby. This is the same friend who got married last August. She got knocked up pretty quickly, and we were all thrilled for her. I felt even more thrilled for her because she is my age. Jealous, yes, but thrilled nonetheless.
A year ago, I was finishing up my last unsuccessful IUI and feeling quite alone and afraid. Today, I am enjoying the backaches as I grade my papers. I am feeling the kicks and movements of this creature inside of me. I am feeling, dare I say it, like I am pregnant and am going to have a baby. With extreme confidence, actually. I'm not sure where the fear went, but I am calm and happy. Today I am 32w3d.
I went to a cloth diapering class offered by the local natural parenting boutique this morning. I thought I was informed before this, but now I feel like AHHH!! There are so many options to choose from: two-parts, pocket, all in ones, hybrids, one size, fitted. Ahhh! I had no idea, really. It is a lot to digest, but I know for sure that I intend to cloth diaper and feel as though I have resources and a place to go with questions.
In the afternoon, I dropped by prental yoga and enjoyed each moment. When I used to do work-study, I cleaned right after the saturday afternoon class. It was hard to see all those pregnant women leaving class. Sometimes it would really hurt and I'd sweep, mop, and dust my way through the bitterness and anxiety of my infertility. I think I realized for the first time that today, I am one of those pregnant ladies.
Oh, and for those of you who are struggling with back issues, the belly bra works wonders for me. Ok, it's not called the belly bra, but it basically lifts and holds your belly up, relieving the pressure. It's ugly, but it is helping.