CD 4, moving forward

I finally rescheduled the IVF consult. It is for the 2nd week of October. Let's hope I don't get blown off again.

On another note, I purchased Circle and Bloom after hearing about it from Kitty. So far so good. The meditation is pretty bizarre sometimes, but I am trying to play along and visualize my pituitary gland and my ovaries connecting (ha! yes, it really tells you this!).

I need all the help I can get at this moment. I'm still in a funk, and this past AF was AWFUL! Massive cramps that kept me up at night, lots of clotting (TMI). I was so upset because this felt like the good ol' days pre-lap. I hope my uterus isn't all messed up again.

TCM tomorrow, so maybe she can help. Will this ever happen for me?

in hiding

It's been almost a month since my last post, and honestly, I am not quite sure why it has taken me so long to update. I have been reading your blogs, though. Honestly, school started and a month later, I have survived. I spent two lovely weekends at the end of August back with my bestest friends for bachelorette and wedding nonsense, and then I fell into pretty dark place. I think it was the high of being so busy with fun and life that when it was over, poof! and I was so very down. I still am. I've been off the TTC wagon for the most part, although I am still going to my weekly acupuncture. Sometimes I feel like it's a waste of money. I still have yet to reschedule the IVF consult, and I'm not quite sure when I plan to do it. If we wanted to do IVF in December, I need to hop on it, right?

(((Sigh)))