Friday, November 26, 2010

Thyroid WTF and then some

I had my endocrinologist appointment this past Wednesday and she basically told me my TSH was perfect. Nevertheless, she ordered bloodwork to be sent out for a full screen. I felt a bit neurotic when I spoke to her. She asked if I was referred to her by my RE and I said no, that I was here based on the fact my brother has Graves disease (hyper) and on an anecdote about TSH and fertility. I'll get the results in a week or so. I'll post when I know more.

On a side note, I go in next Thursday for BW and US to begin IVF. To tell you the truth, I am a bit scared. I'm having second thoughts and I am afraid to actually write/say it. A part of me likes being childless. I can do what I want when I want, blah blah blah. I am also a bit terrified of having multiples. I know that is silly. When I actually analyze these feelings, I come to the conclusion that I just have enjoyed my life. I'm 35, turning 36 next week. I've got it good right now. DH and I are great partners. Will we be great parents and partners?

Of course I want to have a family, and yes, I want to be a parent. Am I the only IF pre-IVFer with cold feet?


Kitty said...

I am 100% sure you're not the only one with cold feet! It's nice to be able to do whatever you want whenever you want. But you are moving on to a whole new adventure now! And just think, in 18-25 years you'll be able to do whatever you want again ;)

Good luck with the test results!

Jill said...

I agree with Kitty. Normal to have cold feet. Parenthood is a big change, but the good far outweighs the bad. :)

Alex said...

Of course you have cold feet - we all do at some point! It doesn't mean you're not ready for parenthood, I think when it takes longer for some of us to become parents, we sometimes question our decisions, but always come back to wanting to be a parent. I think that's at least how it is for me!

Kari said...

Sounds like your TSH levels are probably perfectly normal and that's AWESOME!! It just makes sense to dot all your i's and cross all your t's when investing so heavily emotionally and financially. Good luck with the BW and US!!

Ashley said...

I got cold feet a million times plus a mild panic attack when I walked out of the bank with my ginourmous money order to take to the RE's office. I think being worried about being a parent will make you a good parent because that means that you realize it's a BIG deal.

You are also smart to be afraid of multiples. :)

I hope the tests turn our well!

Donor Egg Bank Mamma said...

Plenty of people get cold feet. Its only natural with so much at stake. Hang in there.