Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Normal my F$#*&% ass

I did not want this fucking quad screen because of this very thing: my doctor called this morning and left me three messages--one on my cell, one at home, and one at work! Turns out the AF.P levels are high, but all the rest are fine. FUCK! Inside I have a feeling that these levels are high because I had three fetuses growing. I have googled the piss out of it, and all I can confirm is that in twin, triplet, and quad pregnancies, AF.P levels ARE higher because of the multiple fetus thing. However, Dr. Google has no information about whether or not two dead fetuses plus one live one =equals= high AF.P. FUCK! Of course I can't get the MFM anatomy scan any sooner than next Thursday. FUCK. You know, I don't think I am strong enough to take this right now. Oh, high AFP levels usually detect neural tube defects. FUCK!

10 comments:

Allison said...

(((((Huge hugs)))))) Your explanation makes sense. It REALLY sucks that you can't get in sooner! Hang in there, chica; sending strength your way - you CAN get through this.

AL said...

I'm so sorry for this extra stress, but I'm hoping that the scan will show that all is well and it's because of the formerly multiple pregnancy that these levels are high.

praying for you.

Circus Princess said...

Well FUCK! Hoping and praying it's nothing and only high because of the triple pregnancy!! And this is exactly why I didn't do any of these screenings, I would've been worrying my butt off.

Kari said...

(((HUGS))) I think your situation is pretty unique(which means Dr. Google has little to no helpful info), in starting out as a confirmed triplet pregnancy. I know this isn't what you wanted to hear and we didn't do the quad screen so I don't know anything about it. Sounds like your doc is in unfamiliar territory as well. Hoping your next appointment gives you better info.

Alex said...

It sounds like your doc isn't used to dealing with situations like yours. I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this additional stress in your life! Hope the scan looks really good!

Gurlee said...

Damn, I didn't even get a chance to post on the normal-ville post. I really hope that things are fine, fine, fine. Try to take a deep breathe and believe, it is going to work out. Sending you lots of love!!

erika said...

Ugggggh((( I am so sorry you have to deal with this! I am dreading the same thing happening. I was also kinda' pissed bc when I brought up my concerns at the meeting with the genetic counselor - well, she wasn't able to answer my questions clearly.
The good news is, that the high A.FP is likely the result of the losses. Most likely baby must be fine!
Thinking of you!!!
Hoping the MFM will be better getting you answers!

Tanya said...

(((HUGS)))

I'm sorry that this is causing you this unnecessary anxiety. I'm hoping and praying for you that it is because of the other 2 fetuses... I'll be thinking about you.

quadmom said...

Hi ... wanted to offer you some encouragement from Dr. Google. I spent a good 30 minutes on pubmed and found this article. It shows that after fetal reduction (which I would say is the same biologically as miscarrying just for the sake of levels of chemicals in your body), AFP levels are indeed elevated.

http://cel.isiknowledge.com/InboundService.do?product=CEL&action=retrieve&SrcApp=Highwire&UT=A1993MC45800039&SID=1EhbHoN7nooAcia765e&Init=Yes&SrcAuth=Highwire&mode=FullRecord&customersID=Highwire

I really hope this helps ease your fears. Thinking of you.

Anonymous said...

Well, if it's any reassurance, my doctor DID say that the test results would be skewed because of starting out as multiples. We went ahead and did them, but he said that he'd take any elevated results with a grain of salt because of the one baby that we'd lost. So I think that you are surely fine. I understand the nerves, however, and am thinking of you.