Thursday, August 12, 2010
CD 28, a post in which I begin to lose my mind...
So here I am, CD 28, and no signs of AF. Either this TCM really works wonders, or I am preggo. Ha! My mind is playing tricks on me. I am due for AF either tomorrow, Saturday, or Sunday, and I am not testing any time sooner. This whole shebang sucks! I mean, here I am, convinced that I must be pregnant since I am not spotting or having any PMS signs, yet my acupuncturist told me this is how it is supposed to be: I am not supposed to spot a week before AF, and I am not supposed to spot mid-cycle, but why can't my brain embrace that? Why is it that I want to believe this is the super cycle, the one where I miraculously get knocked up? I mean, tomorrow is my IVF consult with dr. S and the hubs. Isn't this suppose to be the storybook happy ending? I get knocked up on my own and find out the day I have IVF consult? WTF? There is no zen to all of this! I just have to wait and wait, and my stupid mind that believes I am knocked up will only hurt me in the long run when I wake up Sat or Sun morning with bright red blood streaming from me. This totally sucks. This all totally sucks!!! Sucks sucks sucks! I hate that I am always sad and disappointed monthly for the past three years or so. I am not sure how much more I can take!
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OMG - I'm so incredibly impressed that you're not testing. I would be going nuts! Oh wouldn't it be wonderful to have the storybook ending??? Hoping for you!!!
Great job not testing!!! And you acupunturist is right, after I went I lost all my PMS symtoms which are still gone even thought I dont go anymore,. inlcuding sore boos, spotting, etc.....so it makes it hard to know what's what. I am hoping and wishing and waiting with you. xoxoxoxoxoxox
I've felt that way so many (TOO many) times! Hope is such an ass sometimes. However, that being said...I hope you're pregnant!! ;)
Good luck and my fingers are crossed for your fairytale ending!! You deserve it!!
Take it from someone who was recently in your situation, it can happen:) Hoping for a miracle coming your way!!
Wow. I am impressed that you have managed to hold off on testing. I'm not sure I'd be able to. I hope that you get good news whenever you do decide to test. Hopefully you do not have to take much more of this at all - whether it be in this lucky month or with IVF. Keep the faith!
Good luck! That time of the month is SO hard for me. I am usually a non-tester too, but the combo of removing my fibroid and acupuncture has created symptom-less PMS, it is enough to make a girl crazy.
I hope you get your happy ending!
I HATE THIS PART!!!! Ugh!!! Doing the "stay away AF" dance for you!!
Hoping for a miracle. But, then again - IVF is soooo much fun! Who wants to miss out on that?! (har har.)
(((Hugs))) I didn't have any PMS the first couple of months I did TCM, then the third month I got pregnant and had no idea. I hope this is your super cycle, it's certainly possible :) Hang in there.
Great job staying away from the pee sticks. I always did too. Hang in there!!
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