Tuesday, November 3, 2009

twas the night before consult, and all through the house

Just wanted to post a little note before I go in tomorrow for the first RE consult. DH and I are drinking a glass of wine (only one!) and hoping to chill this evening. I am a bit freaked/scared about tomorrow for several reasons. One is that this is such a small city, and I wonder who I will run in to at the fertility clinic. Another is that I have this appointment right before I have to teach, so I fear the waterworks will be turned on full blast and I will end up looking like a sad weepy woman to all my students. bleh! Mostly I am scared of the unknown. What will the RE tell us? My fear about the last one is pretty much one of my ticks/faults. I don't do well with the not-knowing--presents, surprises, jumping off the deep end in a pool. I am scared, too, that the truth might hurt more than I can imagine. I am scared that the RE will say there is little to no chance of conception. Tonight-- it is just the unknown that frightens me.

8 comments:

A baby for Al? said...

Good luck tomorrow! I hope you feel optimistic about things and you really like the RE.

We have our first RE appointment next week, I'm excited and scared at the same time.

addingtothepack said...

I also do not handle the unknwon well. I would try to be encouraging and tell you that the news will be better than you expect tomorrow, etc. But I know the fear of the unknown is really in no way alleviated by someone else telling you not to worry about it. So instead I just hope that the time between now and your appointment passes quickly for you so you can put the unknown behind you. Good luck!

Jill said...

Good luck! I hope that you hear good things and have a good appointment!

tishi said...

Tonight enjoy the wine,
and I am wishing your luck for your
appointment tomorrow.
keep us posted!

Lookingforaplussign said...

Thanks y'all. Dh is asleep on the couch and I am watching TV, thinking too much.

Thank you all for the support.

Circus Princess said...

Good luck, I'll be thinking of you. For me, knowing was so much better than not even if it was somewhat more negative news than I had expected.

Ashley said...

Good luck with your appointment tomorrow!

This is totally weird, but I did run into one of my grandpa's coworkers at the first RE I went to and a parent of one of my kids at school at the second. So I totally know how you feel.

Again, good luck, I hope you get great news, and I will look for your update!

Mom Genes said...

eager to hear how the consult went. let us know after you've had some time to collect your thoughts : )