Late last week, I received a call from a TCM (traditional Chinese medicine) practitioner, a phone call I had been expecting for quite some time. She had an opening for me finally, so we set up the appointment for today. I had her website bookmarked on my computer for, oh, over two years, and finally called her a while back. It was clear that she would call when something opened up, and sure enough she finally did!
After a long conversation about medical history, my PMS symptoms, my western diagnosis, she made her concerns known: why does Dr. S want to begin ovarian stimulation when I ovulate? Why so aggressive?
That questions had been bugging me, too, and the most recent decision DH and I had was to wait one month, blah blah blah, but the truth is that I am a bit freaked about this method because in all accounts, I ovulate regularly--why stimulate? Am I taking this route so that I get knocked up fast? What happens if I produce multiples, and when I say multiples, I mean Jon and Kate style? How will we work through that change? Obviously, DH and I have some talking to do. I know that Dr. S told me that the chance of multiples is a risk I have to stare down...maybe I need more time with that. Not that two is risky, but three? four? five? huh? I am spinning! Am I the only one freaked about that? Am I just selfish?
Anyway, today, my TCM diagnosis is Liver QI stagnation, which essentially means that the symptoms I have (fibroids, clots in my period, frustration, irritability, holding things in emotionally, uterine polyps) are signs that my Qi is not flowing smoothly. I began acupuncture today and will continue this method, along with some dietary changes (no more chilis? wah!) for the time being.
I remember feeling this block a while back during a restorative yoga class.
I have a weekly appointment set, and as soon as my cycle comes on and I see what my period looks like, she'll offer some herbs to me, too.