Tuesday, October 27, 2009

when there is no point in trying...

And I mean that sincerely. This month's cycle has been, well, what cycle? I am not obsessing/stressing about what day it is, what my CM looks like, if I am eating the fertility-friendly foods. I just am, and I am really digging it. I've had more fun this past week than I have in the longest time. I managed to get in a nice Sunday brunch with friends, champagne, and more champagne, I drank with DH several times this past week, mostly just the casual glass of wine or two. Mostly I feel lighter and more free than I have in a long time.

In addition, I managed to come out to two people, one friend of about 3 years, one of about 20, and both offered up their uterus to me and DH. I am pretty sure that they just said that to comfort me, but I love that they love me so much, they are willing to say anything or offer any sort of condolence. I have beautiful and wonderful friends. IF or not, I am pretty darn lucky. I can now actually talk about my diagnosis without weeping, so progress, I say.

On a lighter note, we have our RE consulting appointment next week. All of our records are in the process of being faxed or shipped, so we are all set. DH and I have also began the discussion of adoption/fostering. This whole process is so much more expensive than I had even realized; I am lost as to how the fees can add up. More research is definitely needed on this front.

Progress, I say.


Circus Princess said...

Progress is great when it feels this good :-)
Looking forward to hearing about your RE consult, our initial consult was such a relief and it felt like finally someone understood and wanted to help.

tishi said...

I am so happy to hear that you feel "lighter"
its such a good feeling to put the IF stuff
aside for a bit (I know its never really
aside) but at least pushed back enough
to have a little champaign. Your friends
sound awesome!!! not many ppl will offer
up their uterus!

MK said...

I'm thinking of doing that after my last Clomid cycle next month. Just saying "screw it" and not be so strict about TTC. I can't even imagine how nice it would be!

We're interested in adoption too, and I agree - it's outrageously expensive! Ugh.

Jess said...

I am glad that you have been enjoying yourself. IF robs us of so much that sometimes we need to just forget it all and enjoy life again.

Jill said...

Not obsessing/stressing is the best thing you can do (don't confuse this with me telling you to just relax and then you'll get pregnant!). :)

I hope you continue to enjoy your days and feel comfortable talking with people who love and support you.

addingtothepack said...

I am glad that you are having such a good "non"-cycle. Having a few friends to support you can really make a world of difference. I am glad you had such a good experience coming out to a couple.